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Showing posts with label Alone. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Alone. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Bar Close


Watch visions collide
Hopeful expectations break
Furtive, disdainful

There is little love
In the vacuum of passion
The broken-heart, skips

Stumbles in the chase
Broken promises and lies
Rejected and bereft

Pining and alone
Aching with desire, undone
As the lights go up

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Doubt


Existential angst, imaginary feelings, dread fabrications

Teetering on the edge of the abyss, descending in the deep, grasping at straws like the drunken on the ego

The painful awareness of getting ahead of yourself, convincing yourself that anything is good…or good enough

If you believe it

Does the burning in your guts satisfy you now?

Do you believe it?

Joy is yours if you desire it, and sorrow waits around the corner if you desire anything at all

You are not alone

This is the human condition

Stand in the presence of God, voice raised in song, a clarion of love

Listen and remember

In what chamber of your heart did you hide the key, the secret of eternity

Fumbling through the webs of uncertainty, stumbling, lost and forgotten on the event-horizon

Stretched in the timeless moment of doubt

Tuesday, February 5, 2019

Alone


Wandering Alone
Relinquishing all my dreams
Empty fantasies

Day-dreams and visions
It is one hundred degrees
Sitting in the sun

Vanishing being
The sun burns an arcing path
Through the silvered sky

The tar is boiling
Its stink rises in the world
Wafting in the wind

Words seep from my lips
Parched and cracking, turbulent
Noisome speeches drift

Lost refutations
Is this world I imagined
The folly of hope

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Grief


Shattered and frozen
The boy lifts his head, afraid
And submits to loss

Retreating desire
Watching her slip beyond view
Alone and wanting

His quivering lip
Shivers with rejection, pain
Abandoned and lost

Feel it, a cold hand
A hot slap, enlivening
The sinuses sting

Tearful agony
Oblivious to the storm
Contemplation ends

He stands and shuffles
Puts his hands in his pockets
Swallows his grief, and
            Turns

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Herd


Desperation, and
The search for identity
The need to conform

Affectation, and
The cool assimilation
Seeking unity

Pull together, for
The safety of the ego
From the many, one

We turn down the flame
That sheds the light on difference
We are dim actors

Examination
We suffer it, we give-up
The secrets of self

To the common cause
Given to the common good
Our identities

I was alone, and
I stood apart from the world
In rebellion

I watched my image
As the world changed a movement
To fad and fashion

Pushing unity
Providing identity
Cause to conform
  
A safe place to hide
The sheep in the sheepfold, flock
The id, satisfied

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Miracle

Awake and alone
I am too poor to receive
This revelation

Awake and alone
The miracle passes me
I could not touch it

I feel the bludgeon
The cold, and despairing blows
Numbing my senses

Hollow humanity
Our terrible husbandry
Mechana of grief

Our desire to rule
Captivate and dominate
To name and call ours

Everything turns, spoils
Seeding the earth with poisons
Soaked in bitterness

Alone and awake
Witnessing a miracle
Softly beaten air

Brushing against me
Broad wings, black against the night
Wings of the eagle

Soul of the nation
White head, yellow beak, raptor
Tearing into flesh

Hungry, devouring
This miracle, eating me

Alone and awake

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Nothing

Heart, soul, and mind
These capacities escape me
Unquenched, unfulfilled

My loss of vision
The pursuit of knowledge, self
Unresolved, undone

Mystical and blind
Reason, profitless quest
Unendurable

I am alone, the
Center of a universe
That I cannot share

Philosophies speak
I may as well be nothing

Dreaming and waking

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Alien



I am cold, alone
           
The wind tears into me, pain

Ties me to this place


Alone, without love

The horror of fear and hate

Shame and self-loathing