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Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Home on the Ocean


My shattered self
Memories, like old mirrors
Set in a collage

Incongruous tiles
The pieces of me, fragments
Float on the surface

Rising in the swell
The flotsam of my life, trash
Jetsam and debris

I bath in blue pools
The threshold of ice and fire
A place of healing

Port in the North Sea
The rising sun sets in you
The moon following

Stare into the stream
Rest beside the silver brook
Dwell in the current

Flow into the sea
Oceanic memory
Hunting the kelp beds

Raise the sails and fly
Drifting on the tides of time
My ghost left behind

Monday, June 11, 2018

Emergence 3.0 - Section Four, Kathy; Part Twenty-two, Childhood; Chapter One, Memory


Emergence 3.0
A Novel – In One Page Per Day
Day 162, Monday
June 11th, 2018

Chapter One: Memory

From the moment she was born Kathy lived in two worlds: one, her senses; two, the larger world of memory.

Just beyond those two distinct forces, forces that were always present in her consciousness, she was aware of the living presence of all of the other human beings around her.

Her memory spoke to her in words and visions, contextualizing everything she encountered, summarizing each new experience at the speed of light, and faster. The operations of her mind could occur in no-time, it neared the transcendent.

Every smell, every touch, every sound was evocative.

The things she saw and the things she tasted drew her out of herself, and into another world.

As an infant she was often debilitated by the experience of new things. She would be stuck in the on-rush of memories, they would come on her like a flood

She was often paralyzed, drifting, floating in-between worlds.

The voices came to her unbidden, they were the voices of her ancestors and they sought to protect her, but they more than that, they were more than a reconstruction of personalities from her ancestral memory. Through her unique consciousness her memories were connected to the real presence of her ancestors, of humanity, actual people persisting in the cynergenic field of Earth.

The imprint of every person who ever lived was present in the nous-sphere. Within the Earth’s quantum field every person who had lived and died was present.

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Sunday, February 11, 2018

Emergence 3.0 - Section One, Jim and Kathy; Part Five, Endings; Chapter Seven, Memory

Emergence 3.0
A Novel – In One Page Per Day
Day 042, Sunday
February 11th, 2018

Chapter Seven: Memory

There was not a moment of her life that Kathy could not recall, she remembered everything. She remembered the birth canal, the darkness of the womb, her mother’s breast.

She remembered her first birthday, her first steps. She rememberd struggling as an infant, struggling to be understood, to speak, to master the muscles in her tongue and lips, so that she could form words against her palate and speak.

Her contextualization was perfect, and it was as fast as lightening. She could pull together the most remote and seemingly unconnected pieces of data to provide context for analysis. Her proctors believed that the speed with which she could arrive at conclusions was not measurable. She could answer questions in no-time.

She defied understanding.

The field of her knowledge was not limited to her own experience. It was tied into her genetic heritage, the memories of her ancestors built into her DNA. But it was more than that, she was able to tap into something else that was only understood through mythic narrative, a structure that no human being actually understood, and of which only a few human beings even suspected the existence of; the nous sphere, of Tielhard de Chardin, the cynergenic field of Carl Jung, the collective unconscious of planet Earth.

In that electromagnetic field, that quantum reality, the entire repository of human knowledge existed. Kathy had access to it, she was not the first human being of which this was true, but she was the first person that it did not drive into madness.   

Now that she was standing in Jim’s apartment, she knew that he had lied to her about a great many things. His life was not at all as he had presented it to her. This life was not his only life, there was more than one Jim, of that she was certain.

Kathy was not surprised.

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Saturday, January 6, 2018

Progress, Time and Place

Memory, what is it?

We have located the physical structure of memories in the proteins that form the engrams, that make-up the spindle fibers in the brain.

The tiniest sequences of amino acids form the web of neurons that house our consciousness.

But what is memory?

Are our memories only of the past, or are they also of the future…becoming now?

All that we are, everything we will ever be, all of it is right-before us, just beyond the reach of our finger tips, our potential-becoming-actual and concretizing in the past, like the rolling crest of a wave, churning in continuous motion.

Can you see it?

When the end that you have seen, the future you have anticipated, is realized in the present, what has occurred?

What has transpired when that moment slips into the past?

We are, each of us, fragments of a greater whole; we are splinters, specks of dust, we are the tiniest of seeds.

We are the infinite in germ, containing the whole in the part, like the DNA locked in our cells, the whole of who we are tangled in its double helix, awaiting the divine spark for it to unfold.

We are emotional beings, our memories of our experiences include the reality of how we felt, both in the moment of their instantiation, and later in the moments that we reflect on them.

There is the empirical reality of what is, or was, and there is the empirical reality of how we experienced it, felt it, internalized it, a process is always ongoing.

The past gets rewritten through the stories we tell, narration filters and therefore altars reality, not by changing he past, but by changing how the past is carried forward in the present and thereby projected into the future, conditioning us toward the end that we are seeking, the final cause that is the cause of all causes.

We are intellectual beings, thinking and perceiving, our memories of our experiences include the reality of how we narrate them, both in the moment of their instantiation, and later, in how we reflect on them.

The things we say about the events we participate in matter, both what we say aloud, and what we say to ourselves through the silent voice inside our head.

What we think and feel matters, our thoughts and feelings are real events, each and every one them. They happen, not in a private world unique to our individual experience, the occur in our experience, an experiential reality we share with the rest of creation, whether we chose to reveal those private moments or not.

Each in their own way has the potential to open our memories to us, our understanding of who we are, of what is, or bar us from the same.

The way is not a straight path, it is a winding road that navigates between the two, between the emotion and the intellect, pulling them together to form our understanding of the now, of what was, of who we are, and what will be.

The mystery of life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to experience, a wise man said.[1]

We must pass over the threshold of our own experience, move through the transom clear headed and ready to record what we encounter, both within and without, making ourselves into a the blank slate, our spirit into the tabula rasa, a perfect mirror capturing the light of our experience.

The journey we take through our memories, those trips are not a reliving of the past, they are creative moments in the here and now, co-creative events taking place in the present, while re-creating the past.

To speculate about the future is like chasing after ghosts, such visions are as elusive as the memories we have about events that have already transpired.

What is real is what is happening now, but do not fool yourself, because it is almost certain that you do not know exactly what is taking place around you.

Every moment we experience is directed by two things; a set of historical antecedents that push events forward, and a set of motivations concerning the future, which direct them toward a desired end.

Every event we experience has a multiplicity of such things; antecedents and motivations, that are too many to count, encompass, or comprehend.

We never really know anything.

Our potentials are always changing, both our powers and our liabilities shift at any given moment.

Rise with your potential, float on the tide, welcome the weather that follows.

We labor in the now, and every moment is a new referent guiding us toward our dreams.

Nothing is static.

Everything is mutable, in flux, even the past. Such is the nature of time, and our memory of it.

This makes us co-creators in the universe, partners with the divine in the eternal moment.

We are, each of us, the center of the universe, the fulcrum of all progress, in our time and place, on the razor’s edge, spinning with the world, turning on the lathe of heaven.



[1] Frank Herbert, Dune

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Emergence, In Fifty-five Words - Section Four, Kathy; Part Twenty-two, Childhood, Collected Chapters




Emergence 2.0
A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 162, June 11th, 2017

Chapter One: Memory

From the moment she was born Kathy lived in two worlds: one, her senses; two, the larger world of memory.

Her memory spoke to her in word and vision, contextualizing everything she encountered, summarizing each new experience at the speed of light, faster.

Every smell, every touch, every sound was evocative.

She was often paralyzed.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 163, June 12th, 2017

Chapter Two: Memories

There were hidden places within her, deep places she would spend years discovering.

There were languages no person had spoken for millenia.

There were memories of love, of pain, and the promise of transcendence.

Her memories were full of visions, visions of transformation, of her ancestors, where she was always in a state of becoming.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 164, June 13th, 2017

Chapter Three: Remembering

Kathy’s memories came to her unbidden. They simply suggested themselves to her in order to frame her understanding of the events she was experiencing in real time.

She experienced a dialog with the ancestors living within her, deciphering events, and answering questions in an instant.

It was an atavistic process. It happened at light speed.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 165, June 14th, 2017

Chapter Four: Knowledge

The new was surreal to Kathy. The more unique the event, the more fascinated she was by it.

For her to witness something unprecedented was like watching a movie in a blurry, off-axis context, while the voices inside her attempted to shape her understanding of the event by providing context, offering comparisons, and suggesting similes.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 166, June 15th, 2017

Chapter Five: Knowing

For Kathy, knowing things came unbidden. Details of particular points of knowledge filled her mind at quantum speed.

She did not have to ponder or search her memory for anything.

The meanings of symbols, and of histories, populated her consciousness in no-time.

Everything she sensed was filtered through a screen of the complete human experience.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 167, June 16th, 2017

Chapter Six: Understanding

For Kathy, comprehension came from beyond time and space. It came from a place within the mysteries of the atom, within the waves that make up the fabric of the subatomic field, from a place in which time and space are concepts without meaning, trillions of points of light drawn into the concrescence of insight.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 168, June 17th, 2017

Chapter Seven: Expressing

Kathy played music.

There was not an instrument, or a rhythm that she did not master instantly.

She sang, with perfect pitch.

She spoke in her own voice, all the while sensing the multitude within her, guiding her fingers, her brushes, her pen, and her tongue.

She was the living repository of all human knowledge.

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Emergence 2.0
Section Four, Kathy

Part Twenty-two, Childhood

Collected Chapters

01 Memory
02 Memories
03 Remembering
04 Knowledge
05 Knowing
06 Understanding
07 Expressing

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Tuesday, May 16, 2017

War and Delusion

Nature is red in tooth and claw, or so Saint Augustine said
See beneath the placid waters of the calming lake, where it is eat or be eaten
There is always a bigger a fish

Peer beyond the gold and purple of the meadow, flowering
The snake and the fox are on the hunt, the spider is weaving, and the cat is prowling
We humans are the worst of all 

We languish in the comfort of peace, smothered in its balmy illusion
Delighting in the sweet euphoria of the warming breeze, soft and wet, and smelling of the sea
We are the swine-herd of Calypso

The world is at war and its burning with a magnificent heat, a nuclear fire
Violence tearing continents apart, consuming cultures, and nations, and tribes, devouring them 
Hungry America, daughter of Liberty

She walks the earth like a Titan, pissing and shitting everywhere
Leaving fields of corpses, each body a seed of resentment, filling rivers with blood, and waste
She is not America, she is Kali Amer
            Amer Kali, the goddess, The Destroyer of Worlds, bitter and raw
                       
It happens in an instant, depending on how you measure time
A tiny event, a million minutes, a blink of the eye, an episode of pain
A flash of white and it is gone

We view the past in abstracted pieces, frame by discontinuous frame
Memory never captures reality, it reconstructs, creating something new
A conditional aesthetic

A lawn chair, a sun tan, the oil coated skin, bright and glistening
Bronzed and warm, fractals repeating, a desperate nation, a starving child
The intoxication of peace, inebriating war
            Our comforts are not free


Sunday, April 23, 2017

Emergence, In Fifty-five Words - Section Three, Earth; Part Fifteen, Observation, Collected Chapters




Emergence 2.0
A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 106, April 16th, 2017

Chapter One: The Paintings

The people drew pictures in the soil with sticks, mixed colors and painted, projecting images of the future on cave walls.

They carved their hopes, and fears into stones, and the faces of cliffs, the past also.

They depicted things no one living had ever seen, the memory of which they carried in their genes.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 107, April 17th, 2017

Chapter Two: The Music

The music of the people, the drums they beat, the rhythms they made, they pushed the stories of each tribe, each family, deep into the memory of its members. It changed them on the genetic level, setting up successive generations to recall them, relive them, to transform those stories into a part of their being.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 108, April 18th, 2017

Chapter Three: The Memory of Stars

Even before the eruption 72,000 years ago, the culture of these children of the Ancient race had devolved, falling from star-farer to cave dweller. Yet that culture retained a faint memory of its ancestry. through the stories they told and the engrams of memory encoded in their cells.

It was precious little to build on.

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Day 109, April 19th, 2017

Chapter Four: Mutation

During their sojourn to Earth, the children of the Ancients determined what their physical needs would be before they arrived at their home.

They began to mutate their DNA, altering their genetic structure, allowing them to inhabit, and thrive on the wet-blue world.

Destination Earth, it was their last hope for a home and haven.

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Day 110, April 20th, 2017

Chapter Five: The New Gene

Change begets change.

The Ancient spacefarers became humanity. Their ages-long sojourn across the galaxy had already caused them to modify their physical form in significant ways, long before they arrived on Earth.

They survived by mutation, and now their genes converged with the native life of Earth.

They became a new people; stronger, better, faster.

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Day 111, April 21st, 2017

Chapter Six: Collective Consciousness

With subtle interventions from the Observer the human brain slowly mutated.

Receptors emerged in the organic structure, attenuating the higher order thought processes to the Earth’s magnetic fields.

It established synergy between every human being alive, turning the entire planet into a field for cognitive development.

In this way humanity became connected, through the nous-sphere.

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Day 112, April 22nd, 2017

Chapter Seven: Synergy

Few humans were aware of the collective consciousness, or that they lived within the dynamic nous-sphere.

Everyone was entangled in it.

It permeated all things, as it was coterminous with the Earth’s electromagnetic field.

It drove many humans into madness.

It required the advent of written language, and thousands of years to figure it out.

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Section Three, Earth

Part Fifteen, Observation

Collected Chapters

01 The Paintings
02 The Music
03 The Memory of Stars
04 Mutation
05 The New Gene
06 Collective Consciousness
07 Synergy

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Sunday, February 12, 2017

Emergence, In Fifty-five Words - Section One, Jim and Kathy; Part Five, Endings, Collected Chapters





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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 036, February 5th, 2017

Chapter One: Notice

Kathy knew she would never see Jim again. Though, she was not certain. She felt his passing like a moment of turbulence. When it was over; it was like she was in a vacuum.

She knew he had died before she received the call informing her that his body was found by the flight attendants.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 037, February 6th, 2017

Chapter Two: Anonymous

Jim did not carry ID. He never did. To society at large he barely existed, he left only the smallest of paper trails to define him.

He was off the grid.

There was nothing on his phone to tell anyone who he was, only the record of the calls he had recently made to Kathy.

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Day 038, February
7th, 2017

Chapter Three: Autopsy

The pathologist informed her of the cause of death, catastrophic stroke. An embolism burst in his brain, killing him instantly. Yet, he was in perfect health.

Kathy had no idea why she was the one to receive him.

“Why am I here;” she wondered.

She was the only person the authorities could connect him too.

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Day 039, February 8th, 2017

Chapter Four: Family

Kathy would not have believed it possible, but Jim was more mysterious in death, than he was in life.

She was fascinated by the developments, and full of sadness. All that was fine, except that suddenly she was responsible for his body, she had no idea what he might want her to do with it.

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Day 040, February 9th, 2017

Chapter Five: Finding

It took time, and some detective work.

Given her abilities Kathy was typically able to glean any information she wanted from the people around her, but Jim was a phantom, as much of an enigma in death as he was in life.

When they located his residence, a judge gave Kathy access to the apartment.

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Day 041, February 10th, 2017

Chapter Six: De Ja Vu

In all of the years that she knew him, Kathy had never been to Jim’s home. He was an intensely private person, and to her knowledge he had never moved. Nevertheless, it was exactly as she had visualized it, scant, and bare.

He was a Spartan, an aesthetic. It was extreme. It made her uncomfortable.

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A Novel – In 55 Words a Day
Day 042, February 11th, 2017

Chapter Seven: Memory

There was not a moment of her life that Kathy could not recall; she remembered everything. Her contextualization was holistic, and it was as fast as lightening.

She was perfect.

Now that she was standing in Jim’s apartment, she knew that he had lied to her about a great many things.

She was not surprised.

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Emergence 2.0
Section One, Jim and Kathy

Part Five, Endings

Collected Chapters

01 Notice
02 Anonymous
03 Autopsy
04 Family
05 Finding
06 De Ja Vu
07 Memory

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